Early this morning, someone talked to me and asked me if I would like to hear a song that I must had known. The song was turned on, then I heard this:
"God we lay down our burdens, our cross, our troubles before you because truly you are an all in all, you are king of kings, we'll worship you today, and praise your name, because of who you are and what you've done for us."
I didn't know what I felt that very moment. I was surprised. I could see a smile there; but I felt alone. I felt soooo alone, yet I was with someone. I just wanted to shout out loud to the Lord and say, "Lord, I missed you!!!!"
All memories came and filled up my mind, burned my hearts, stopped me from something I didn't even know what. There were only the two of us. There were two hearts. The first was likely trying to i don't know, the other one was crying inside.
"Agony!", I said. But I was hearing the words of worship. So why agony? Agony!", I said again. Yes, God was speaking to me through this song. He knew where I was; that I needed his comfort, his grace, his love. I was drifted away; right at that very moment. I didn't care, I wasn't sober, I wasn't aware. But I remained the same. I am still the same.
I'm listening to this song now. I still can't forget what happened to me this morning. When someone let me to hear the song again. I found out things were so random in my mind. Agony! I missed someone. I missed God. I wanna run to someone. I wanna run to God. But I can't just serve those two at once. God, why is it so difficult????? Why must this happen?
YOU ARE MY STRENGTH WHEN I AM WEAK| YOU ARE THE TREASURE THAT I SEEK| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL
SEEKING YOU AS A PRECIOUS JEWEL| LORD TO GIVE UP I'D BE A FOOL| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL
JESUS, LAMB OF GOD, WORTHY IS YOUR NAME| JESUS, LAMB OF GOD, WORTHY IS YOUR NAME
TAKING MY SIN, MY CROSS, MY SHAME| RISING AGAIN, I BLESS YOUR NAME| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL
WHEN I FALL DOWN, YOU PICK ME UP| WHEN I AM DRYYOU FILL MY CUP| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL
oh praise God! adikku, choose God! choose God!
ReplyDeletei am trying hard... do you know what's the other one? :( it's not that easy....
ReplyDeleteWow...tears of joy in me, now...reading this! I love you, adik! :) Keep pressing in, yeah?? Don't stop, or slow down! Make Him your all in all!! :) Hugs2u! ~Sean
ReplyDeleteAlmighty God,
ReplyDeleteThe Great I Am
Immoveable Rock,
Omnipotent powerful
Awesome Lord,
Victorious Warrior
Commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conquerer,
And the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when
He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"
It caught me by surprise when God ran
The day I left Home,
I knew I'd broken His heart
I wondered if
Things could ever be the same,
Then one night,
I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see
It's the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"
Hi!!Tyo!!!first of all..PRAISE GOD!!He is working through you..when Ive talked to you ealier this morning.. I want to convince myself ..ARE YOU REALY DOIN GOOD??Then Ive asked someone..He replied..I DONT KNOW..sound like we are guessing that you are doin good..but yet keep wondering,..now I am here at your page reading,smiling, a tears from my eyes fall out...WOW..MY FRIEND IS BACK!!WOW!OUR PRAYERS HAS ANSWERED...WOW GOOD IS GOOD!..In a previous day that we`ve talked..I can see God is working in you..Thanks that you`d let Him..HE WILL BRING YOU BACK IN THE PLACE THAT YOU ONCE KNEW AS A LIL CHILD..HE MISSED YOU TOO TYO!! I am so glad really I am..ngayon naiiyak ako sa tuwa..coz you are standing now.you are in a new and another level of maturity and faith..well keep goin I know beleive me is not easy..is not simple as that...but as keep choose, to worship Him Inspite of Agony! may u feel broken into pieces,tortured and murder by life..it is a part of your life exam.THAT U NEED TO PAST.i know easy in it?but all the is answer is HIM..His guiding love.all you need is HIM..GOD IS YOUR ALL IN ALL..MASAYA kami PARA SAYO!!*hugs*KAKA Rovie..
dont let your fire goes off or snatch by the enemy...LET YOUR FIRE BURN HIM..
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ReplyDeletei know, adik. but the rewards will be worth it. God won't let you go through things you can't endure. God won't be slack in sending things your way when you feel tired. *hugs*
ReplyDeletebtw, if you remember kevin the guy i told you about who's also from bandung. he's a good guy. maybe you could join him and his church group. :)
love you
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