QUALITY TIME

One thing I kinda don't understand, emang weekend gue ga pernah benar-benar weekend. Tiga minggu yang lalu, kedatangan kunjungan juga dari Si Jejes, tapi saya harus serba buru-buru dari kampus karena kampus gue bikin ujian pada hari Sabtu. Bagus bener.. Akhirnya jadilah ketemu Si Jejes dengan mata berkantung, kurang tidur kemarinnya plus efek kelelahan yang tidak bisa disembunyikan oleh wajah. Ga pa pa, yang pasti hang-out bareng Jejes justru menjadi booster semangat yang uda ngedown karena overused.

Well, untuk weekend kali ini rasanya hectic sekali, padahal ya itu namanya dia adalah weekend. Sepertinya terbiasa dengan beberapa minggu terakhir, tiap weekend pengen jadi kuda liar alias senang-senang total. Eh, weekend kali ini  ga seperti yang diharapkan karena harus berurusan dengan kampus sampe sore, again and again. [hammer hammer] I actually had planned to hang out with Yung Jools this weekend tapi sempat kepikiran terancam batal. Gue kudu ngikut dosen pembimbing yang buat jadwal sesuka hatinya.  Untunglah, urusan bisa kelar, walau ya ituu..mepet-mepet lagi. Shortly, balik urusan di kampus jam 5an, siap-siap, dan langsung cepat-cepat meluncur ke tujuan. Dengan segala keriweuhan yang ada, gue berangkatlah dari Jalan Aceh ke Ciwalk.

Hujan bikin macetnya makin berasa sore hari itu. Bakal bakal bakal terlambat dari jadwal. Padahal lebih baik menunggu daripada ditunggu. Anyway, setelah lewat jalur-jalur tikus lumayan jadi lebih cepat, totalnya sekitar 35 menit nyampe di Starbucks. And there he was! Thanks for being so warm, the welcome was always great, plus the order on the table too. :p

Satu jam lebih memang kurang kalo buat sharing a to z  I must say that we can connect all topics from everywhere to anywhere. Seriously, I couldn't remember if we ever came up in a silent phase, terus mengalir saja sampai jauh. Haha! Well, until the time he must take a pack and go,  rasanya masih banyak yang nyangkut di leher [apa sih yo] Hehehe! Saying goodbye at about 9 with a wish we would catch up again soon. :p

Oh ya, masi sempat bilang ke Yung Jools, kenapa ya kalo ketemuan selalu gue lagi ribet di kampus. :D Kampusnya yang ga toleran menurut gue, harusnya dia tahu bahwa saya butuh break. [devil emoticon]

Anyway, that's all for this weekend. Thanks for the quality time!

A Big Step [altered]

I just made a big important decision, step, walk, drift in my life. [lebay] Okay, I stepped, walked, drifted into a world of mask-opened.[sorry lebay lagi]

But Hey? Mask-opened? Apa itu?

Yaa, yang pasti disana bebas berekspresi, yang nude juga banyak. Err!

Tapi gue mah sopan lah. Ya ya ya!

Well, I'll see apa yang bisa ditemukan disana.

Bummm!

Thanks, Te

Thank you note agaiiiiiiiiiiiin!!

AR
This Pinay has always been so nice to me. Just a cople of days ago she sent me a big basket of fruits thru online shopping (she ordered it from UK; it's not sent then, lol). And few days afterwards, I got some other package, sorta personal things so I wont mention what they are here la.. Hahha! Well, thank you, Te! Love ya! :)

Kerjaan Murid Gue

 

Josh, my student, did it while I was teaching. Err!

Persist and Be Happy

Am done with the exam. But still quite a long way to go to get out of this institute and obtain my blablabla degree in civil engineering; some more subjects and the last final assignment. Horee!

Once my friends and I got into a conversation about how much time we would spend to finish our study here in BITCH (Bandung Institute of Technology Cii Huuiii), hahahah! And further[worse] is how that be to compare with others who got out of this 'PLAYGROUND' sooner than us, uuhh!

Hey, there was a time where mattering this had been so much frustrating. Got me! But...later on I found out that there shouldn't be anything to worry about.

One might say, "I spent more than five years at this university just to get a bit of paper!" It is true; but one shouldn't miss the fact that along those years he also met a lot of people, learned a lot about himself (this is one most important thing), and had a lot of experiences that he otherwise wouldn't have had. What really matters and important is not the title put right after his name but the journey he took. That one could be me, heheh! But this is it; I'm living my life with persistence.

Successful people are not that brilliant or talented or unique. They simply have a grasp of the way things work and realise that their own progress will be in accordance with the principles that govern everything else in this universe.

When the tide comes in, it comes in a bit and goes out a bit, but gradually it makes its way in. When a tree grows, it loses leaves from time to time, and each time it grows a few extra to compensate for the losses. The net result is that the tree gets bigger but it doesn't do without some loss and struggle. Precession, precession, precession! Things work on this planet with setbacks as the part of the plan of things.

Now, what I might get in pursuing my goal is of lesser importance.
The real question is, "What will I become?"

So the evaluation is;

"How much have I been learning?"

"How much have I been growing along the way?"

"How (has it been) along the way?"

"What have I learnt in the last twelve months? What can I do this year that I couldn't do last year?"

Actually, I also talked about this with a friend after class. This is what he said,

"Lima tahun atau enam tahun di sini bukan masalah. Tapi apa nilai plus yang bisa kita buat selama waktu itu. Itu nya..."

Well, we get there, Bro! All kidding aside, at the time he said that, I thought a lot. Trying to figure out what we actually had been doing and what else we could gain along the remaining time before the goal is attained.

And.. BINGO! I think we meant what we say that we need to develop a lot of things before the goal is at hand. Along the last few months, we've been so cooperative supporting each other in a real positive way, develop greater courage and determination, refine our powers of persuasion, develop our stamina, achieve greater self-confidence, stronger bounding among friends, more weekend outs, more staying up late with books, gateaway plans, and so much more. And at the top of that, WE ARE HAPPY! Honestly, I wouldn't have experienced that if I finished my study any sooner. Yep, honestly :)

We will generally be tested in some way before achieving something of value. Let's experience it with happiness in the spirit of persistence.

Time to take a break now.

Happy weekend! God bless!

Saya Suka Naik Kereta Api

Killing the boredom along the train back to Bandung. Whoaa, I love green. Do you love greens? Well, we'll go to the grocery soon and we'll make that for you. :D

Ingrid Novivania Tobing

Maaf, tanpa izin harus kupromosikan dirimu. Hahaha! Ini Ingrid. I eN Ge eR I De. 

This girl has a nice voice, good acting skill, good English and German, and blah blah so on so on. She's my classmate back in elementary school and high school. We did duet Obladi Oblada back in an Art Festival in High School. We were in the same cabaret team as well at that time; performing sort of a silly long cabaret..lol. But it was coooooooool..at least according to me. :p

She's now graduated from London School of Public Relation in Jakarta. Dari dulu bakatnya kayanya gitu-gituan deh soalnya kalo ngitung-ngitung dia males bener. Hihi! [senyum penuh fitnah here]

Confession, I once got attracted to this girl when she started to pursue her ability in photo modelling. LOL! 


Some weeks ago ngobrol2 di MSN, jadi makin kangen. Haha! Ya ya, that's why I post this..sorta keinget (recalled) to this girl. Hope to see you again!

Yauda segitu aja! 

Alive

Tyo..it's not living if you don't find problems or hardships. So, never regret what happened cos it shaped you to be stronger than you'd have reckoned. Give thanks for your life and for the people that's in your life. Value what you did good so far, that you've loved the people you care about with all your heart and you've tried your every best to get through everything in your life day by day with all your strength. What you gotta do now is moving forward..and no matter how difficult your past was, realize that your future could be a different story, and it must start somewhere.

Tyo, still remember a line in Forrest Gump movie saying, "My Mama always said life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get!"? A powerful line, huh. So then, just live your present at its best cos you'll never know if you'll get quite much the same tomorrow. Live it, Tyo! Also keep on praying for the needy, keep your love sincere, and seize the day.

Tyo, your life is not about being the best or having the best. It's not about how many friends you have got or if you're alone and nobody cared. It's not about how many competitions you won, it's not about your physical appearance, grades at school, degrees, where you're studying or working, money, possessions. It's not about how many people will turn their head to you or ignore you when you stepped out of the house. It's not about if you're appreciated or despised. Tyo, your life is not only about that. Don't take so much thinking about all of those best being and best having things.

Instead, your life is about how you respect and love yourself and how you respect and love others as you do unto yourself. It's about who you really love..and if you've told them that you love them and care about them (or they never knew how much you love and care?). Again, it's about sharing the love and compassion within you to others who deserve it, even though by the smallest things (cos love often finds its way in the simplicity and the humbleness of sincere doings). Yes Tyo, for your life is not all about yourself...so stop complaining, never regret the past, and live your life, then share good things. After all, you'll want less and thank more.

Remember when you felt happy while lending your hand to a friend who was in need? That is it! A simple action with sincerity could make people smile, couldn't it? Be a blessing, Tyo! Be a blessing!

Good nite!

-Tyo, a self-motivating note

P.S. Special thanks to someone [special] to have let me learning more how to love without asking for reply!

Hallo

Hallo Friendster, banyak perubahan dalam dirimu setelah lama ditinggal pergi. Halah, apa si.

Entah mau cerita ke siapa, tapi sekarang perasaan gw lagi ga karu-karuan. Logika gw bilang ngga usah dipikirin lah kalo itu hanya mengeringkan semangat and..dang..I gotta go with that.

Well, just a lil bit ya...

Pagi ini; Sabtu 17 Oktober 2009 usia gw bertambah lagi satu hari. Hari ini pula gw bisa berfikir bahwa satu hari adalah sangat berarti. Satu hari jika dikumpul terus menerus jadi satu bulan, jadi satu tahun, dan entah berapa banyak sejarah kehidupan yang kita tuliskan dalam waktu-waktu itu.

Sudah 22 tahun lebih hidup di dunia yang indah ini, apa yang uda bisa gw lakukan buat orang-orang yang gw sayangi? Belum ada ternyata. Kebanyakan nyusahinnya. Kuliah belum kelar dan honestly gw kecewa dengan beberapa event dalam kehidupan gw dimana gw buang-buang banyak kesempatan berharga.

Tyoooooooooooooooooo! Maafin dirimu ya. Kesel sih. Makanya barusan juga gw post sout out di Friendster ini *similar to status sa facebook i guess*; "missing old times".

Ga bisa! Ga mungkin! Even last month or last year; I just couldn't go back there. Semua adalah sejarah. Baik dan buruk pun sebenarnya ada di sana. Ya, mungkin sekarang emang lebih overwhelmed sama rasa kangen dimana waktu-waktu untuk menunaikan kewajiban utama masih panjang sementara sekarang semua sudah semakin sempit. Waktu itu masih lebih sedikit orang yang sakit hati ama gw; sekarang uda lebih banyak. Ah entahlah..

Gw bukan orang suci tapi gw harus berkata gw BERSYUKUR uda memiliki hidup yang orang lain tidak miliki. Setiap orang kan punya cerita masing-masing. Bersyukur terhadap cobaan yang harus gw alami; moga-moga itu bisa buat gw makin dewasa dalam berfikir dan bertindak. It takes time.

Senin entar gw ujian tengah semester; sekarang sudah di penghujung hari-hari di kampus tercinta. Kampus yang memberikan begitu banyak harapan di masa depan jika gw bisa melewati ujian hidup selama four years to fife (?) only. Kampus yang uda bisa bikin nyokap bangga sampai mencucurkan air mata waktu pertama kali kita sampe di sana. Jadi, sekali lagi gw harus mengingatkan diri gw seindiri *in case not much people would mind that because we are all busy* kalau gw harus melakukan yang terbaik.

Thank you to someone who always supports me. Dukungan yang kamu kasi itu unik; bosan gw dengar pujian tentang diri gw bisa ini dan itu meskipun harus bersyukur juga dan menjadikan itu sebagai dorongan semangat. Well, tapi kali ini semangat gw diboost karena dia meminta dengan integritas bahwa gw harus bisa mendapat hasil terbaik. Makasi makasi ya.. Just what I need. Terkadang kita memang perlu dipukul rotan in a positive way, perlu ada dibawah sebagai orang yang harus menunaikan janji dan sejenisnyalah agar kita lebih tanggap dengan apa yang kita lakukan.

Anyway, segitu dulu.. Mau sarapan..

~ Tyo

Hahahaha!

Birthday treat with classmates. :) No birthday cakes and candles [teman-teman gue gak romantis], haha! But well I'm so thankful that I had such opportunity to celebrate it with my friends in happiness. Most of all, I thank Him for the days I've going thru. Wish has made! :D

After dinner in Lisung Cafe, North Bandung. The food was so so as this cafe is probably offer the ambience rather than the taste. Har har! We just took some pictures. 

The view of Bandung city was good from the top of the hill Dago Pakar. Unfortunately, there was a power off in some areas in the city that moment. Har har! 

Spending the rest of the night singing like crazy in Nav Dago Plaza.. Yay!

Happy Birthday, Me! God bless!

Call My Name

It's been so long since

You felt like you were loved

So what went wrong

But do you know

There's a place where you belong

Here in My Arms

Chorus:

When you feel like you're alone in your sadness

It seems like no one in this whole world cares

And you want to get away from the madness

You just call My name and I'll be there

You just call My name and I'll be there

The pain inside

Has erased your hope for love

Soon you will find

That I'll give you all

That your heart could ever want

And so much more

Chorus:

You just call My name

You just call My name

Call My name say it now

I want you to never doubt

The love I have for you is so alive

Call My name say it now

I want you to never doubt

The love I have for you is so alive

You just call My name

The love I have for you is so alive

You just call My name

Tulisan Teu Pararuguh

Buyset dah..lama amat gue ga tutulisan. Ngapain aja si lu, yo?? What?? Ngapain aja kata lu? Gue ribet tauk di kampus... Ah yang bener? Iyaa!

Hehehe, guenya ngomong sendiri.

Yaaa, begitulah hidup, up and down, even in an unimportant and unnoticed thing in our life, up and down selalu ada. Istiqomah aja terhadap hal yang positive...ya positive thinking...ya positive hamil.. Apa? Hehehe! 

Maksud gue teh, ya kalo emang lagi down dan ga semangat ngelakuin sesuatu, at least think that it's not gonna be forever, ntar juga up lagi..gitu........

Ya sudah...sekarang gue semangat lagi deh kalo gitu. Bentar lagi kan taun baru. Selain gue harus mengakhiri taun ini dengan baik, gue juga harus mengawali taun depan dengan baik. Amien...

Ngapain aja ya gue taun ini? Ya elah, banyak lah, yo...! Iya...tidur aja gue bisa 3 kali sehari, walau jamnya ga banyak, tapi kan gue suka yang empuk-empuk, 3 kali sehari kaya minum obat dikali 366 hari taun 2008 yang kabisat jadi berapa ya... Perhitungan kasar ga usah dipikirin lah...

Pokonya gue ngerasa taun ini lama banget, salah satu taun dimana gue ngelaluin masa-masa yang unik, sakit, enak, aneh, exciting, worrying...what a colourful life.

Countdown penting di penghujung taun ini: one week to go buat ngurusin kasus mata kuliah engma ke rektorat..uh..uh.., one week to go buat beresin tugas bandara dan pelabuhan, two weeks to go buat ngurusin semua pernak-pernik kuliah yang membutuhkan teman kuliah dan perpustakaan biar gue bisa tenang liburan; got two weeks after that to enjoy a real holiday while well i will keep preparing myself for the exam; roughly three weeks to go till new year, realize your failures, Tyo! A month to go untuk mempersiapkan diri menyambut dua big guys...yang pertama ujian akhir semester di mana gue bakal didampingi juga ama hal kedua yaitu my friends from aboard who are going to visit me.

Buat the last thing, gue ga karu-karuan perasaannya. Sekarang apalagi, kayanya waktu narrow banget yaa. Gue kan harus persiapan ujian, gue harus ujian, tapi gue harus jadi sahabat yang baik buat mereka yang pengen mengunjungi tanah airku Indonesia yang permai, masalahnya all will be in the same time. Apa gue bilang aja ya, "Lu ikutan aja ke kampus gue yah, tungguin gue tiap ujian, abis itu kelonin gue belajar, abis itu kita besok ke kampus lagi. Hehehe!" Kasian atuh kalo gitu mah merekanya. Lah, katanya pengen bersama gue aja, no matter what I'll be doing. Yah, itu aja solusinya... Uda dibilangin ntar aja abis gue ujian, ga bisa katanya. Ya sutra lah tanda mata bagimu...

Engga ah..batik aja...

Ehmm, resolusi taun depan is still on progress. Sekarang lagi ditraining, cocok ato tidak, moga-moga cocok soalnya training mereka aja uda makan waktu dan tenaga gue. Lakukan semua dengan penuh kepercayaan diri, Tyo!

Hantam! Hantam! Sikat! Wee, kalem, Pak!

Iya kalem yaah...oversprit nih gue. Habis gimana lagi, feeling gue yang lagi up up up ini harus dimantain biar ga loyo lagi. Gue ga mau lengah, at least di pergantian tahun ini gue pengen semua perfect. Dia yang berkuasa pasti punya rencana terbaik buat gue. Sebagai manusia, gue si ga pernah tau, tapi gue bisa meyakinkan diri, meraba-raba sambil tetep berserah diri.. Tua amat... Ya, tapi emang harus gitu, kita kan dikasi akal dan budi buat berpikir dan merasakan.

Sedikit berandai-andai (mulai lagi dudul gue), gue pengen waktu berjalan perlahan. Iya dong waktu...pelan-pelan dong...acapkali gue berkata dalam hati. Siapa tuh ya yang pernah bilang kalo waktu itu kejam...kalo ga digunain sebaik mungkin, satu detik aja bisa menjerumuskan kita ke masalah besar, itu saat pikiran-pikiran gue tiba-tiba ga mutu; "Entar aja, deh!", "Aduh, males nih!", "Besok kan bisa!", dan kolega-koleganya.. Yang terparah kalo udah, "Nyerah gue..!" Ohhh, noooooooooooo! Itu bukan bukan bukan gue sama sekali! No oh no oh no...!

Ya, kesimpulannya:

Semua yang uda ada di pikiran mengenai apa yang harus dilakuin beberapa hari ke depan harus dan harus terlaksana. Gue harus yakin itu yang terbaik yang gue bisa pikirin, kalo ada yang lebih baik dari Dia, ya matur nuwun sanget. Divine things itu inevitable, yakinin lagi aja kesuper positiveannya biar yakin gue jalanin small positive things yang gue uda rencanain. Mulai!

Hak yang diabaikan

Perbincangan dengan seorang teman.

Bandung, one desperateful morning

November 2008

"Hm..jangan sampe kamu nyesel nanti ga ketemu sama dia. Kaya gue, ga bisa ketemu ama dia. Dia keburu meninggal duluan sebelum gue ketemu sama dia. Lu ga boleh benci ama dia."

"Chi, gue ga benci ama dia. Gue selalu meyakinkan diri gue bahwa gue uda maafin dia. Tapi Chi, gue ga tau gimana gue harus bisa punya keinginan ketemu ama dia. Beneran Chi, seandainya dia sekarang ada di hadapan gue sekarang, ga mungkin gue menolak dia. Kaya yang gue bilang barusan, gue ga benci ama dia, ga dendam ama dia, dan uda maafin semua yang pernah dia lakukan buat orang yang gue sayangi juga, yang lebih gue sayangi karena gue merasakan kasih sayangnya. Tapi gue ga tau apa yang harus gue lakukan selanjutnya, gue ga punya pandangan atau harapan sesuatu yang indah akan terjadi lagi antara gue dan dia, Chi."

"Dan satu hal yang pasti dari yang pernah gue alamin dulu. Perjumpaan satu-satunya, dia ga ada di sana sebagaimana gue berharap sosok itu harusnya ada. Gue ga nemuin kalo dia punya usaha buat nunjukin betapa gue dan dia emang diartikan seperti apa seharusnya. Waktu dia sakit di Jakarta, dia pengen ketemu orang yang gue sayangi, gue uda sempet ngerasa sedikit bangga akan sosok dia, tapi karena masalah ini dan itu, dia tiba-tiba mundur, dia mengurungkan niat, dia takut sama mereka, dan itu mengalahkan rasa sayang dan cinta yang harusnya dia punya buat gue dan orang yang gue sayangi. Dia pengecut, Chi..!"

.........................

"Iya si, gue juga bisa ngertiin itu....!"

You Are My All In All

Early this morning, someone talked to me and asked me if I would like to hear a song that I must had known. The song was turned on, then I heard this:

"God we lay down our burdens, our cross, our troubles before you because truly you are an all in all, you are king of kings, we'll worship you today, and praise your name, because of who you are and what you've done for us."

I didn't know what I felt that very moment. I was surprised. I could see a smile there; but I felt alone. I felt soooo alone, yet I was with someone. I just wanted to shout out loud to the Lord and say, "Lord, I missed you!!!!"

All memories came and filled up my mind, burned my hearts, stopped me from something I didn't even know what. There were only the two of us. There were two hearts. The first was likely trying to i don't know, the other one was crying inside.

"Agony!", I said. But I was hearing the words of worship. So why agony? Agony!", I said again. Yes, God was speaking to me through this song. He knew where I was; that I needed his comfort, his grace, his love. I was drifted away; right at that very moment. I didn't care, I wasn't sober, I wasn't aware. But I remained the same. I am still the same.

I'm listening to this song now. I still can't forget what happened to me this morning. When someone let me to hear the song again. I found out things were so random in my mind.  Agony! I missed someone. I missed God. I wanna run to someone. I wanna run to God. But I can't just serve those two at once. God, why is it so difficult????? Why must this happen?

YOU ARE MY STRENGTH WHEN I AM WEAK| YOU ARE THE TREASURE THAT I SEEK| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL

SEEKING YOU AS A PRECIOUS JEWEL| LORD TO GIVE UP I'D BE A FOOL| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL

JESUS, LAMB OF GOD, WORTHY IS YOUR NAME| JESUS, LAMB OF GOD, WORTHY IS YOUR NAME

TAKING MY SIN, MY CROSS, MY SHAME| RISING AGAIN, I BLESS YOUR NAME| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL

WHEN I FALL DOWN, YOU PICK ME UP| WHEN I AM DRYYOU FILL MY CUP| YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL

Sebuah Keyakinan

Seseorang bertanya kepada gue pagi hari ini.

"Apa hal yang paling kamu takuti di dunia ini? Apa hal yang bikin kamu sedih?"

Sejenak gue berpikir; selama ini gue selalu convince myself kalo ga ada di dunia ini yang harus ditakuti karena selayaknyalah kita berserah diri kepada yang memberi kehidupan serta yakin dan percaya akan rencana-Nya yang indah. Namun sisi manusiaku yang lemah muncul. Apa yang gue takutkan dan yang dapat membuat gue sedih?

Terucaplah jawaban sederhana dari gue, "Gue paling takut dan sedih kalo liat Nyokap nangis."

Suasana hening...

Mungkin jawaban gue tersebut punya makna yang sama baginya. Entahlah...

Gue balik bertanya...

"Kalo kamu gimana?"

Tarikan nafasnya menandakan bahwa pertanyaan yang ditujukannya ke gue sebelumnya bukan sebuah pertanyaan biasa.

"Gue paling takut kehilangan seseorang yang gue cintai dan sayangi.", demikian jawabnya.

Entah apa yang mucul di pikiran pada saat itu. Gue langsung bereaksi layaknya menyatakan protes namun tetap dalam wujud gue sebagai manusia yang lemah yang tidak ada artinya tanpa Kasih dari Sang Khalik.

My reply,

"Yeah, I see. Gue rasa juga demikian. Tapi mengapa gue ga bisa berkata hal tersebut sebagai hal yang paling gue takuti dan membuat gue sedih adalah karena BAHKAN untuk berpikiran ke arah itu, gue ga mampu."

Gue ga mampu dan terlalu takut dan akan terlalu sedih jika harus mengucapkan kata-kata yang sama seperti yang diucapkannya sebelumnya. Gue ga bisa berpikiran demikian. Gue terlalu sibuk meyakinkan diri gue semua akan baik-baik saja. Benar yakin? Sudah berhasilkah gue meyakinkan diri gue? Coba lihat kembali, gue berkata kalau  gue sendiri tidak mampu untuk berpikiran ke arah itu. Jadi, apakah gue sudah yakin atau belum? It's too deep inside my heart. Setiap orang punya cara masing-masing dalam menanggapi hal-hal yang berhubungan dengan rasa keyakinan.

Satu hal yang pasti, "Hanya dengan memikirkan hal-hal yang baik sajalah gue dapat bertahan hidup dengan semua permasalahan kehidupan dunia ini." Kita pasti pernah mendengar orang menyalahkan Tuhan atas apa yang dialaminya dalam kehidupannya. Itulah dasar segalanya. Source of everything which is good, actually is GOOD, mengapa terkadang terlontar kata-kata menyalahkan Dia?

Jadi, kembali ke awal. God is good. I think all of us agree with that. Dia baik dalam setiap perkara sampai selama-lamanya; meskipun kita penuh dengan dosa dan kesalahan. Cuma itu aja yang bisa membuat gue semangat dalam menjalani hidup; dimana sumber dari segala kebaikan itu meyakinkan gue bahwa hal terbaik dalam hidup gue akan baik-baik saja. Mom, the most precious part of me will be all right. Di saat itulah keyakinan itu bertumbuh. Dan meskipun gue terkadang harus terlalu jauh berdiam dalam bayang-bayang kekuatiran karena alam pikiran manusia yang terbatas, aku kembali kepada satu hal dasar yang tidak dapat berubah, God is good. Suddenly, things are changed.

Pelajaran yang dapat gue petik dari pembicaraan gue sebelumnya adalah bahwa memang kita tidak mampu untuk menjadi baik dengan kemampuan kita sendiri. Kita hanya dapat menerima sesuatu yang baik. Setelah itulah kita dapat mengerti apa yang baik. Namun bahkan dengan kebaikan yang lebih dulu kita terima, kita terlalu sering memberikan yang sebaliknya kepada yang telah memberi kebaikan dalam hidup kita. Menyesal, itu kembali kepada masing-masing individu. Setiap orang punya rancangan hidup berbeda. Tapi dalam proses yang sangat panjang bagi ukuran manusia; berada dalam kesesakan, kekuatiran, dan ketakutan, semua itu hanya dapat diobati dengan kepercayaan dan keyakinan dalam pemikiran positif kita; God is good no matter what.

Namun, melihat Nyokap menangis ataupun bersedih; itu akan tetap menjadi hal yang paling dapat membuat gue bersedih, yes I am scared of that. Semua karena satu hal; dia adalah bagian hidup gue. Kesedihannya adalah kesedihan gue. Kebahagiaannya adalah kebahagiaan gue. Nevertheless ; God is good to us.

~Guntur Situmorang